Recently, I read Lysa TerKeurst’s book, Unglued. I first became interested in this work simply because I have grown to really appreciate TerKeurst’s writing. My women’s Bible study has used some of her work as Bible Study material, and I look forward to the brief recordings aired on the radio from her ministry, Proverbs 31 Ministries. In reading Unglued, I found that I learned a great deal about myself.
Although I am reluctant to open my heart to sharing some deep, emotional insights, I feel that the time has come to unburden myself to you, my readers. The coming posts will be rather personal, but I pray that something I share here will resonate with you and meet you where you are today in your life’s journey.
At the beginning of 2012, I wrote that there would be a theme to my posts this year. I talked about the idea of the mirror and reflecting Christ to everyone around me. I have found that reflecting Christ comes with its challenges and a great commitment. I am an emotional individual, and it doesn’t take long for me speak in anger, cry in fear, or fight for my own way in various situations. Neither of these responses point to Christ’s life within me; in fact, these actions mirror a self-motivated individual who has simply come unglued.
In her book, Lysa shares: “Might our unglued places be like windowpanes of clear glass that give us an honest peek inside our souls— places where we can see what’s really going on within?” (167). This particular quote opened the door to really examining myself internally. In the times when I come unglued, I need to take a moment to ask myself why. What is lying just under the surface that causes me to lose perspective? Is it fear, anger, loss of control? I have found all of the above to be true.
In the coming weeks, I will explore these ideas further, but one thing I will say before I sign off is that I would be completely lost if it weren’t for accountability. I am a part of two different women’s Bible studies, and I highly value my time spent in close communication with these incredible women. We have come together in prayer in the midst of difficult times, and we have encouraged one another when things looked bleak.
My relationships with these women prepared me for an even deeper source of accountability through my work as a worship leader at my church. I have had the opportunity to interact with the pastor and other church members, and in the process, I have had to endure some constructive criticism. Although I became teary-eyed as I took in the words that were difficult to hear, I came out of such encounters with a renewed sense of purpose and direction. Sometimes, accountability hurts and may result in an unglued state, but in the end, healing and growth can take place. In the coming weeks, I pray that my brutal honesty can open the doors to a different accountability in the realm of online community through “Cassie Contemplates…” I would be honored if you would join me on this journey.